Happening week..

Past week has been a little happening.. I mean happening enough to make me write an entry aft so long..

1st it was CapitalIQ at a pool campus.. it left me gasping how they expected Electronic(s) guys to build test cases over their testing platform screen-shots, there was an apti which i guess any one could clear with or w/o any vodka shot oozing in his stomach. Any how punu aur pappu ki bak-bak sunte sunte time pass ho gya.

2nd it was evalueserve.. they had an opening in IP division, Electronics n i have a friend there. So internal referral provided me opportunity to appear before a panel to gauge my technical holdings.

Looking really forward to it.. I was back to books.. Analog, Digital, DSP...n all.
Day came n i was there (15 mins before time) :P

1st apti.. then an RC, had to answer some flowchart questions.. Not a big fight.. I battled through. then there was the tech round.. panel asked my strong-holds.. n i was there..

"Sir, BASIC Analog, BASIC Circuit theory. and GENERAL Microprocessors."

Anyways the interview spanned: Maxwell Equations, KVL,KCL, BJT, 8085, 8086, Poles-zeroes.. frequency plots.. Routh Criteria..Nyquist(n also some 12th class funde.. potential, energy, conventions)

To everythng else i was quiet ;)
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An hr later:
I was delighted.. knew sm electronics, after all.
The panel too recommended me for manager level round.
Kunal ne kaha tha beta haste haste maarte hai ye.. aur shyd aisa hi hua.
I'll just mention 2 ques they asked -
1. If a/b is even and a+b too.. then which of these
is cerainly odd
a. a/2
b. b/2
c. (a+2)/2
d. (b+2)/2
e. (a+b)/2

2. The no of pages I had in my file.. including photostats [I took time. recalled. n replied]
Secondly..What fraction of a normal tree were they??
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Either way it was good on their part.. they told me then n there.. that i didn't fit their requirements.

Utterly disappointed, i left for home.
[And yes.. if given a chance, I would pop an egg each to those 2 managers and then ask them.. how many food-chains have this organic matter been through? ]

Back home.. i opened my (g)mailbox n had a surprise.. Interview call from Webchutney, (thx to naukri.com). They are initiating a new venture in digital governance.. preparing a base level team.. he mentioned abt an evalueserve manager, sm IITian guy, they had roped in already.. He himself was IIM-b graduate, and here they were looking for smone to go for secondary research, consulting, client interaction.. i.e. role of "biz-analyst"

I had an intuition.. boss degree ka kuch kaam nhi hai.. so i mentioned abt my blog.. and a summary i prepared last year.

IT was a decent 30 min interaction ..am awaiting their final response and really looking frwd..
(will add more aft gettn result)
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A week later:
I called the HR today.. and she said, The offer has been rolled back.

100 truths

1. Last drink: Mother dairy’s lassi
2. Last phone call : called chhavi and received karan’s
3. Last text message: msgd kunal, marks in mock
4. Last song you listened to: Rehna hai tere dil mae..
5. Last time you cried: It was recent, about a fortnight back

Have you ever?...

6. Dated someone twice: no
7.Been cheated on?: I don’t think so
8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: no
9. Lost someone special?: lost some.. but am glad a few of whom I lost, I got back
10. Been depressed?: yup
11. Been drunk and threw up?: naah.. capacity k hisaab se! :O

Four Favourite Colors...

12. Dark blue

13.Navy blue
14. Black

15. Red
..

Firsts....

16. Made new friends: I love to
17. Fallen out of love: I did.
18.Laughed until you cried: rarely
19. Met someone who changed you: yup.

20. Found out who your true friends were: yes. n also found who were not.
21. Found out someone was talking about you: yup. It feels great :P

Have You...

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all of them
24. How many kids do you want to have: as many. Would love majority of them to b girls. :) 25. Do you have any pets: no
26. Do you want to change your name: I don’t. Papa wants it to be LALIT NARAYAN SARASWAT
27. What did you do for your last birthday: I have a blog entry for that day. Nothing much.
28.What time did you wake up today: 0545
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Trying to sleep, under sky, ossum weather yesterday
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: I don’t know. Really.
31. Last time you saw your father: 4 hrs back. When he left for office.
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Why am I so carefree.. n why do I realize importance later. 33. Most visited web page: google.com

What's Your...

34. Name: lalit
35. Nicknames: gabdu, chooja(only mummy calls me by this name.ok.), laali, laali sir, lalle, gb
36. Zodiac sign: aquarius
37. Male or female or transgender: male obv.!
38. Elementary: B.N. School (B.N. is for Badri Nath. right!)
39. School: DAV, Sec.-49.miss it a lot. Jyotsna mam, aparna mam.. TR Sharma sir
40. Colleges: YMCA
41.Hair color: Black
42. Long or short: short
43. Height: 5’7”
44. Do you have a crush on someone? Not now, exactly
45. Ever been in love?: yup
46. Piercings?: will get ears pierced one day! 47. Tattoos?: nopes
48. Righty or lefty: righty
49. First surgery: left toe, had an ingrowing nail
50. First piercing: yet to get
51. First best friend: Preeti ;)
52. First sport you loved: Cricket
53. First pet: was a female pup.. ‘mini’, she died soon.. I got another one.. named her ‘bhoori’, I was 4 or 5 then, had to abandon her soon, too.(Papa ko pasand nahi)
54. First vacation: Haridwar
55. First concert: JAL.. in Gargi
56. First crush: My 1^st best frnd. It ws in UKG.. I used to talk endlessly about her.. everwhere. I also remember both of us sitting in class.. discussing story of a movie which had song.. “kabootar ja ja ja….” (hehehhe). Met her after 13 yrs.. n we both recognized each other. Quite easily.


Right Now...

57. Eating: Will have lunch, once I get through this.
58. Drinking: nothing
59. I'm about to: change song. Its oxygen, repeating 10^th time… perhaps.
60. Listening to: Changed to Walk on by.. Bryan Adams again.
61. Waiting for: nothing

Your Future...

62. Want kids?: yess
63. Want to get married?: asap :P [Mummy meri shaadi karwa do… jaldi]
64. Careers in mind?: Big firm. Decent job. Investment banking.

Which is better with the opposite sex...??

65. Lips or eyes: both
66. Hugs or kisses: kisses, with a few; rest hugs
67. Shorter or taller: taller
68. Older or Younger: older :P
69. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous at specific places.. and romantic at specific times
70. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms
71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
72. Hook-up or relationship: r’shp
73. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant


Have you ever...??

73. Kissed a stranger: naah
74. Lost glasses/contacts: I alwz get them back
75. Sex on first Date: ~~ naah ~~~~~
76. Broken someone's heart: I feel I did.
77. Had your own heart broken: Don’t wish to reply
78. Been arrested: Abhi tak to ye ek tamanna hai
79. Turned someone down: yup. I did.
80. Cried when someone died: yes
81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: haan yar.. that’s obv

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

82. Yourself: yup
83. Miracles: yup
84. God: I don’t know. I really don’t… I love everything like worshipping.. the entire concept of it. But believing… am not in a position to ans tht.
85. Love at first sight: is possible
86. Heaven: everything lies here only. Earth.
87. Santa Claus: naah..
88. Kiss on the first date?: depends
89. Angels: IF a mortal turns into one.. like they do. There are.

90. Devils: (ans as above)



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

91. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: right now.no.
92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: no
93. Wanted to kill someone ever?: never.
94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss?: none
95. Committed a blunder and regretted later?: yup.. and regrets cost more.
96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? Nahi yar.. :P



ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...

97. White: shirt
98. Black: anything. Head to toe.
99. Red: t-shirt.
100. Pink: x

~~~~~~~yippie.. done!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My old home

More often than not Why do i get dis-engaged in things which appear less worthy at a later point of time...? I say this because this way I lose time.. time which could have had a better meaning.

I am more than 8 months new at our new house, and now more am getting used to it the more I miss the older one.. most of all I miss the roof, the view from the there.. lying over a mattress in midst of night and gazing above, that sky and those stars they meant something else...
A gamut of memories come alive ..as and when I step over our new roof.
that big ashoka tree, that wrought iron staircase.. sitting beside that iron boundary grill.. watching that lone yellow street-halogen, those two mobile towers.. and beyond them, far beyond.. those (aravali) hills..
1st floor.. 2 rooms, one accomplished, while other semi open, which housed my bench, dumbells, rods.. I remember how Piush and I used to sweat it out in our 1st yr, trying every bit of us to get in shape.. as time lapsed, 'trying hard' turned into 'trying hardly' and when I left I did'nt even bother to take them along. They are still there. Unattended.


1st yr, ED exam.. deadly one.. kunal aur punu ghar pe.. waah kya padai ki thi.2 baje soye 6 baje uthe.. aur poori raat haste rahe... margin pe pass kara tha us M L Aggarwal ne.. just 40 on 100!




(to be continued..)
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So, 2 yrs down the line its time to close this one.
Close with a thought on my old home..
In my dreams not a single day since then I have seen our new house.. its always the old home.. rooms, walls, memories, voices... love, anguish, festivals, celebrations.. (25/02/11)

Milestones..

well, it was a nice day today. witnessed some special moments.. moments which bring happiness to someone as he does things which other may like.. or rather, is bound to like.
tws a frnd's bday.. kunal rang in morning n we decided to set out for ggn in afternoon.. surprising her. to our surprise punnu gave us his new bike :P
we decided to take flowers on way..but couldnt find any florist. so there wasnt any gift as such but our presence(only).
now.. a regular journey to ggn takes hardly an hour but today even journey ws special. scores of times it rained and it rained fiercely.. at times we stopped, finding protection under trucks, hiding in bushes.. even punu's bike ws turning up as reluctant as him,everytime we stopped it took minutes of kicking before finally deciding of taking us along!
finally in 2 hr 15 mins we were outside her college.
at last madam ko wish kara... unke roomies dekhe. (1 bandi sahi mae hott thi :P)
fir socha kaun is mausam mae pizza hut k pizza tode.. chalo 23 ki market. paranthe khate hai..
so finally 4 of us.. me, kunal, bday girl & her frnd.. paranthe khaye.. lassi pi.. aur kya badiya background music tha... vallah :x
: 0515.. we decided to trace back
and as we did.. we saw each of them,
26-25- 24-23-22-------------6-5-4--
:)

Last day at college

It seldom occurs that outside happenings make me giddy..am too self contained for that part. But day before yesterday.. after we were done with last semester-major and we all were outside college at our regular addas "shikanji-waala-n-khoka",I was like looking back again n again towards college building.. realising that, yup.. its over now.. no more bunks, no gedi-baazi, no more early morning wake-ups to get there.. no more sittings on college grass.. and no Lizo. About an hour or so.. we sat there, i had little to speak.., was quiet n my heart pounding inside. After we dispersed n i picked my bike from parking lot.. n set out to home, i was like.. want-ing to cry n hug smone

Occult

This was the second poem I wrote, and it actually came up in two parts, 1st was named 'Pieced to Peace', but then someone's comment made me realize that it was highly negative.. another attempt later changed it into following and I named it 'Pieced to peace - Enriched'.
Before putting it up over here I again changed its name and here it is, my occult -

Singing alone I sat there
it was a gloomy corner
fury in mind and
tranquility around,
I gazed at the 6 pm sun.

Yes, the same fat sun
its still the same, it used to be
but not the same
anatomy with me
Tied to the shackles, I try
to free me.

Free me from the past
and possible future
For I am now the same,
as never I intended to be.
The waves are at peak
and I know i am at the apex
trying be a prodigy
I now need to knee.

Knee to the one
who will take me away
Three fathoms into the sea
or in a closet
not known to me...

Dei - Gratia,
The resentment might get dissolved
And me too..
in the salty water.

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Cut my arms
Cut my legs
Pluck my eyes
Chisel my ears..
stuff the nose
and remove the tongue
Put me down
Six feet down
Down the ground,
For I feel
I shall be..
Pieced to Peace.

HALF hour down
Half sun down
At a distance I see
Over the golden cloud,
An angel looking at me.
She took me by hand
Out of the mayhem..
As she softly spoke
and I simply stared...

"I'll put you down, as you said
Six feet down, as you wished
Down the ground, because you wanted...
But for the moments you live there,
do me one gesture -
Feel..That you still have the heart you were born with
You still have the soul that Thee imparted
Take your mind back to the genesis
And ferret across the best times u have with"

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Three hours down I opened my eyes,
it was dark but not for me
Having experienced the occult, it then occurred
"Oh dear God, I have been such a fool...
There is magic in life and there is magical You."

Comments: (as received on orkut)

- Usha mam
Stark..though it begins on a normal note...but deepens to the anguish, the insidious pain, the plea, the grace delivered, and finally to redemption, in life..

that is how it seems to me now... though i may be way off the mark....

a deep one, Lalit, and the Biblical references, if so intended, do add gravity to the entire poem...
well expressed, and written

- Sowmya
very nice lines...superb skill ...enriched it is..but only dat i felt..da poem i donno ..may b i didnt get da concpt.but i felt da chnge of subjcts were stark at some points..lyk as two concpts hv been forced into one ....multiple poems in one thread may b....anyway...its very nice n loved reading it..

- Priya
thanx boss....am glad to see this version

- Maulik
ah lalit..
i missed yaar..
he he..
loved it ....
ur so much matured with your thoughts..
and lovely style u have..
keep going man...
:)

- Gunika
u knw wat
d new added part ws really gud
i lykd it mor

-Pop
Feel, that you still have the heart you were born with
You still have the soul that thee imparted
Take your mind back to the genesis
And ferret across the best times u have with"

A really good one !!

But I really didnt get the last line. One Life and One Me?? It sounds negative to me :)

- Kshitij
i must say u hv come of age buddy
we hv lost our good'ol naughty "lallu" n wat now we hv is a refined version.....
well done boy...keep up da gud wrk!!!!!!!!!

-Aayushi
wow that s an amzing piece of work...read both versions...u ve worked v well an changed it so drastically...frm negative to positive....lovd the lines u ve added on...and yes the phrase, the concept...pieced to peace...is fab!!keep writing!!

Verdict

ITs been known for long
between you and me
and everybody else
Like you said so
and like i never acknowledged.

Some things -
we say and we forget
Some actions -
we do and we forget
Some grudges -
we hold and we loose
but Some feelings -
we keep and we transcend with.

I want to believe, I still...
but like the
image of a mirror
in the mirror
This is no verdict.

Wants & wishes do seldom suffice
The verdict is -
that of the vapours..
Either they fall on earth
or spread hues in sky.

(19-09-08)

Comments: (as received on orkut)
- Aamnah
Wonderful piece. Wise, elegant and so simple

- Ash
Fabulous write

- Philomel
interesting..i have a poem by the same name.

- Maulik
febulos and out of blue theme....
what a write here...
lalit bhai back with a bang bang bang .....

lovely dude..
superb composition

- Kshitij
makes for a good read..

My Varanasi stay.. moments captured

(12-03-09)
Few days back I went to AFSB (Air Force Selection Board) Varanasi for a possible selection.. but because I wear glasses they denied me the initial INS-B & PAB tests and said that I would be judged for the lateral option I had exercised in my form, which was army in my case.. Half my tempo went down that moment. Instead, I had an option.. option to run back home, I could not decide at that time and hence stayed there.

With such a mind set it was absolute that I wont be recommended.. but it was more that even if I get recommendation I wont go to army. Four more days later.. result was out: "Not recommended".

Whatever.. the trip was fine.. I needed one such. I also loved the place.. the simplicity, quietness and the devotion.
Meanwhile I tried capturing the moments.. like I always do. I 'll share a few-

Being extra cautious this time I went a day in advance..
In the evening I set out to see the ganga-aarti.. it was amazing and I loved being there. After the aarti.. the boatman took us for a ferry in middle waters.. 10 of us: a family, an unmarried-couple, I and Boatman; the family chit-chatting, one of their son was at BHU, so even I got a chance to interfere in tech.-talks; couple was sitting beside me, girl first and then her boyfriend... girl lit a small diya and then they both carefully laid it in the Ganges. I just loved the way couple did all that. Boat went a little further.. We all could see the semicircular Varanasi on one side... there i realised that everyone has stopped talking.. all contemplating beauty and quietness of the place.. the only sound was that of water pushed by the boatman... silence stayed for a while, no one daring to talk (as what seemed to me). "I knew that this was one of the best moments lived"

After that when the boatman took us to some ghat and was tracing back.. I called my sister and her, who was back in faridabad, trying to share those moments.

Soon after the ferry ended.. back on ghat, I had a small chat with the couple, the guy had been to AFSB earlier and was now wrkn at SAP Labs, bangalore.. his girlfriend also was working with him. They were on trip to Varanasi because guy had loved the place on his AFSB trip and had thought then that he will revisit the place with his partner. So here they were... I immediately saw future for myself! :P


... to be contd.

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26/02/11

Two years down the line its time to close this one also. Well I wanted to painted all that my mind went through those 4 days. It was bad. Non sense.

Two years hence I am a software engineer at Bombay.. and I guess there are no plans to visit that place in immediate future.