hii ppl.. am addressing all those whom I invited and also those who landed here by mistake.. Anyways.. whatever u read here onwards is on ur sole discretion (there is always an option. hehe..) I just want to create an image for myself to peep into, in future.. I'll vent out whatever I b able to..my thinking, my perception of others.. others perception of me as i perceive, my opinions, over in all.. almost everything possible which matters.. though I'd like to retain the names of all those I fantasize about.. anyways that's fair enough. u can't argue :) All mentioned things will follow in subsequent, the more i will write. Actually few days back I got to read a blog.. the writer seemed to be so happy with his life.. the blog loaded with all his group photos describing each of them in a funnier way. Even I am equally happy with some people around, though more of superficiality - I digress.
To all readers who will comment I have a request, plz don't comment in such a way that it might alter the next commenter's thinking. Other than that I am ur culprit in killing time.. go ahead. type whatever.
Well.. I had been thinking about creating such thing for long.. genuinely whatever (or at least some percent of) we think needs to b preserved, it keeps you intact with ur gut, ur voice and u don't tend to be moved-with, whatever passes by.
To all readers who will comment I have a request, plz don't comment in such a way that it might alter the next commenter's thinking. Other than that I am ur culprit in killing time.. go ahead. type whatever.
Well.. I had been thinking about creating such thing for long.. genuinely whatever (or at least some percent of) we think needs to b preserved, it keeps you intact with ur gut, ur voice and u don't tend to be moved-with, whatever passes by.
I don't mean that it is the best, it just keeps you with you..
I relate it with an example.. one usual day, it was around 830 in morning..the time i have hardly manage once or twice in last 3 years to reach college and attend 1st lecture on time (moreover, i have never been on time anywhere in my life yet.. school, tuition, tests -anything, this 'late' thing even cost me dream of my life.. i reached Air-force selection board at Dehradun..2 hrs late, result: I traced back entire journey 2 more hrs later, crying ..that was d day I cried most. nwz that's other thing, lets get back) so.. it was 830 in morning and I was about 4 kms from college, waiting for auto. It was cold and cloudy.. just then this aged man on bicycle took my mind, riding slowly with a kid in front and another behind him. The man seemed 'calm'( now, why I use this calm here will get clear in following lines) and kids too. It must have been their routine.. same things each day. Nothing to bother.. satisfied with life, as it comes. Even I had a similar 'routine', same auto ride and same path but I was never calm.. always in hurry. Cursing these auto-wallahs as if they really have a plan to make me late.. cursing not having a bike.. cursing everything possible which prevented me from achieving what I aim for.. The man with kids passed by and left me with certain thoughts .. these not-so-special thoughts made more prominence with me those days as I had developed a penchant for writing poems and I thought of writing something 'touchy' - Despite the hardships some people are so calm and they take life as it comes their way, also to these some of the people in large.. there are more of those, who would drive big cars and will still not be calm. These extra sensitive .. it appears to me makes big of small things, the strain they face and they portray has no equivalence.. they need to puff cigarettes and to stress out by driving at 120km/hr....
Why not be at peace when at least u don't have to drop kids to the school riding a bicycle? Anyways all of these appeared to be taking too much of me.. (Generally most of the things appear to be taking too much from me.. I try to keep things simple which they never tend to b, with me at least. Even this simply-lalit will appear to be a hell lot of complex to some but remember I told u, u are reading all this on ur own discretion). The thought of writing a poem never materialized (of course, on this thought.. I have written several poems n sm gud ones too!) and in a way it just appeared to mention it here. (Well most of the things I undertake.. never come up. I expect too much of myself and over-commit. Actually I cant really blame this over commitment, at times circumstances also push to abort but they say u should at least have a will which should in the least last! - IT also fades with me)
--------------------------So, the example is over and for those who are still gasping what i meant to say, remember.. I talked of thought preservation. Who knows one day I will also drive a big car with the same un-calm face.
